As I lay next to this gorgeous little girl, sleeping peacefully in her co-sleeper, arms up by her head and breathing softly, how can I not feel completely blessed?
I have been so incredibly blessed. I am married to this amazing man who would do absolutely anything to try and make me happy. I mean, he works hard for us, helps out at home and even after spending all day at work has no problem helping to cook dinner, occupy iKaitlyn and Super Baby so I can sew, or clean, or cook or take a bath or run errands or whatever I want to do. He makes me laugh, is there for me when I cry, shares in my interests and is really and truly my best friend and partner. There isn't any doubt in my mind that we'll grow old together, not because we have to or because we made the vows but because we want to.
We have this gorgeous 6 year old little girl who has learned the fine art of sarcasm, is an amazing big sister, smart as a whip and just a ton of fun to hang out with. We were blessed with 10 weeks of holding, hugging, kissing, feeding, comforting and caring for a little boy that no one thought would make it through delivery. We have been blessed again with another gorgeous little girl, the striking image of her older sister who brings so much joy to our life each and every single day.
We live in a great house that has more than enough room for us, a soon to be sparkling pool and a playground that beats any park near us :) We have plenty of food in our cupboards and in our fridge, the medicines we need, an ample amount of clothes and just about everything we could ask for.
And family and friends. Sometimes I sit and wonder how we got so lucky to have such an awesome support system. I love my family. I have no doubt that there isn't a situation or circumstance where I couldn't count on them 100%. I know they love our kids, I know they love us and I know they want us to enjoy our lives however we see fit. I wouldn't trade my friends for anything in the world. I don't know how I got so lucky to have friends that I've known for over a decade and who I feel closer to with each passing year and amazing friends who I consider family.
When I sit and look around, I know that even though we do not have Matthew here with us to enjoy it all, we are still so incredibly blessed. And even through the pain and grieving, I am so grateful for all that we do have. Thank you to our friends and family who have helped make us who we are today.